its been over a year since i had updated our family blog... its been a tough year. adjusting to being mother of 3 kids has proven to be much more difficult than i thought. i've truly found myself struggling on many different levels this year while still trying to find joy in these 3 kids and wonderful husband God has blessed me with. Its only been in past few month of this long year that i find myself having moments of true happiness and they are so very profound moments because ive been in such a fog all year that these sun beams of happiness have been blinding, showing me just what a bad place i have been in. when looking through the picture of the past year its kinda a weird cause it looks like ALL these happy times we had ALL year long but in my head when i think over the past year its still met with struggle and suffering. its made me realize that we usually only take picture of the "good times" the memories we want to keep. the true reality of the past year would show many diffreent pictures if i were to taking photos of my struggles, my foggiess and my weaknesses. While i've learned alot over this past year about myself, i am still coming to terms with alot of healing that i didnt realized still needed to be done with ted deployment almost 3 years ago.
My 3 kids continue to challenge me on a daily basis, but each one has their own special personality that i try to find more joy in than fault.
Zerrell is full of life and energy, a smarty pants in both good and bad ways. her out look on life and imagination always amazes me.
Harper is still my sweet boy and trying to find his way in bewteen his two lively sisters. in a land of barabies and dolls he hold strong to his cars, trains, airplanes and tools. he is very smart like a true boy his favorite word these days is POOP!
Bailey at 1 is a little ham and she knows it! doing things on purpose to make us all laugh.
in bewtween the fighting and sibling rivalry there are lots of moments that all 3 kids play together which is such a wonderful sight to behold.
Ted is very busy working for a private company that contracts for the national guard. he enjoys his job. he has also taken up cycling. competeing in some races and riding long distances.
I have hope for the next year and look forward to all of our new adventures as a family.
click on "2011 a look back" over to your right too see our pictures over the past year
